The wallpaper that I've edited

My first wallpaper i edited(without any extra tools)

My second wallpaper that I've edited(with extra tools)... ^^

A big difference huh? XD

Headache

10/07/2010 – 11.59 P.M.

      Aloha guys~!~! Kombawa~ Good evening! XD..Hmm.. I didn’t expect to write another new post geh…but somehow I feel I wanted to do it. ^^..Today, I went to work with my brother at his workplace lo.. Suddenly feeling wanna go to work today because I think it’s due to some egoism that I had earlier on, which is yesterday(Friday) when I went to my brother’s workshop to wait him to fetch me home.. O.O>? Is the first expression when I saw him, my cousin. Lol.. he also came to work on that day as well~! How surprisingly!! Haha..maybe that’s why I wanted to work today. ^^

      Hmm, when I’m home, I somehow like indirectly think of that issue.. That my cousin going to work everyday (since last time he got some family problems, he’s not going to school for some time. It’s all because of his sister. I really do hate her). And now, I think and think and think, wondering that is he now better than me? Is he performing better than me?(and many more) O M G~! Then that might a point I feeling wanted to go to work at first , I did not go there work for quite a time..second, I wanted to check him out(to compare those thoughts I have thought.).

      Hehe, how selfish am I. =X. Well, the result is, he went there just for few days only(which means he started to learn), in these few days he did not learn much(perhaps of his status-conscious too, like don’t want to hear advice or thought he’s at least more powerful than other employee), and he did not hesitate to say a vulgar words. Lols..How busybody am I ya..haha..One more thing..this is funny..xD..When I go buy lunch with him, we ordered ‘chicken rice’. He ordered a normal 1 and so do I. But the difference in the early stage is he straight order extra rice(a big one)..lol..then I keep thinking until I ordered the same thing. Haha…that is obviously ‘ego’..something like, you can eat so much why can’t i? hahaha…

      The best result I gain today is, I got a headache on the evening..Maybe I didn’t eat for the evening session or thinking too much + did not have an enough sleep. XD..Now I at least glad that my cousin did not follow his sis’s footsteps (MAYBE only, he might be the spy of my family, for her sis who ran away from home.) and I really hope that his sis will wake up as soon as possible from her ‘blind’ love.

Love is blind. I do admit it. I do knew that my ex was somehow a ‘playboy’(I dunno what’s called for female..^^) but I still believe her that she’s not. Not until she leaves me that night. Well, all her friends that knew me said that I’m really DUMB to choose her. That’s why when the one clarifies clearly that they’re leaving you, you will finally open your eyes. Those statement does not mean I very hate my ex, instead, I would like to say ‘THANK YOU’ again for teaching me so much thing from the beginning till the end. It’s just that I’m not the right candidate for her after spending time together for some time. =) Thanks ya. ^^

Well, if I’m not sleeping ASAP, I will have a big trouble tomorrow since I need to wake up early(at least not after afternoon..xD..then you know what that ‘early’ means,,xD) to prepare myself to revise with my best friend! Haha.. Oyasumi nasai minna! Good night everyone!  Don’t miss me ya~! =P

Quotes : When you have faults, do not fear to abandon them. - Confucious.

12.30 A.M – 11^th JUNE 2010.

Feeling a little bit disappointing.

07/07/2010 – Wednesday. 9.05 P.M.

Aloha guys~!! Hehe, I’m back! ^^..Well, what’s wrong with the title? Hehe, well actually, yesterday morning I just got to know that today’s public duty (for St. John Ambulance) has been canceled due to unknown/unclear reason. Well, that was disappointing cause just because for today’s public duty, I wasted quite a money just for transport to Carefour to get the freaking “name tag” which is needed for that kind of duty..Well, that dealer is also a problem..From my perspective, he don’t give a damn about my order until I said, “it’s urgent”..Then he started to call the guy whom is making the name tag of mine and saying that the next day(yesterday) the tag will arrive. Man it’s disappointing & I saw through his sarcasm when he tried to convince me that he’d called the guy last time, but not yet done. Well, now I’ve got my name tag and I should be grateful too.

Hmm, today at my school rained cats and dogs until my class’s electricity got cut off because of the frequent growling lightning from the sky..LOLs..It’s was frightening because for the first strike, I saw my friend jumped and I jumped too(because he made me jumped..haha)…Not long after that, my mood started to change.. I certainly dislike this mood and I tried to be as cheerful as possible and ignore that cruel mood. Well, it just won’t wear off because maybe the lightning made me remembered some bitter past, I guess. Well, one more thing.. =). I’m really happy that I helped my friend (by wishing) that (his/her)’s (GF/BF) will treat (him/her) as usual since there is some conflicts between them and right after my wish thru the MSN, (his/her)’s (GF/BF) somehow like immediately treat (him/her) as usual. ^^. Well, it’s magical for me or perhaps that my wish is really sincere. T_T.

Now I’ve done the 2^nd wallpaper editing and I’m quite satisfied with the current level I’m in right now. Thanks to my friend, who supplied me extra things for the photo editing, without him, my wallpaper would be suck as usual. XD. Well, I’ve nothing to say right now already. Hehe . Good Luck everyone on pursuing their goals! Gambateh ! Hwaiting ! Jia you !  =)

Surprisingly..

16 JUNE 2010 (10.22PM)

Aloha~!Kombawa~! Anyeongsaeyo~! Ni hao~!  I’m here again! Hehe.. psps la that my blog is like an essay..hehe..Hmm..Tonight was a little surprising..Why I said that? My brother brought his GF to my house to eat dinner!!That time I just woke up,so I don’t feel anything special.. Then when I almost walked out of my room, I saw my brother’s friend(I don’t really know that girl is his GF since I’m blurring.xD)..So I just keep staying in my room to try to get to online(arghh…Damn line..getting worser nowadays..T_T) but failed..Then I started to think..How come my brother only bring 1 guest and female some more? Hohoho..Something’s not right(started to suspect that girl is his GF)..then I overheard my relatives conversation…Then *pop!* in my mind…So that is his GF…Surprisingly neh…Diam diam ubi berisi huh? >.<..Thinking of GF issue I immediately felt SAD! Sigh..Buden I would not say to my brother that “ DON’T TAKE GF LA..NO GOOD..SURE END WITH TEARS DE..” ..lols..even I stayed with my brother everyday, yet I still don’t know his personal things..lol..what a disgrace.. =x..

One question:

1)      Right now, think. Whom you CURRENTLY like?( please ignore the anti love or something. Just think, nowadays what made you feel so interested on that particular guy/girl)?

2)      If you can’t think of it, think again(=X), when somebody’s name being said(please opposite sex ya..) do you [immediately/tried to] look on the source of the sound and tried to figure out what’re they saying about?

3)      If you do, then I bet you’ve a little interest on him/her..Doesn’t matter how MUCH interest you’ve laid on that person right now.

4)      If so, then go after it. Don’t wait until the opportunities is expired..Do it slow and steady, I bet everyone doesn’t like an annoying fella keep disturbing his/her personal time..hahaha

5)      Ask him/her out(don’t too frequent, cause will burn ur purse out =P). Try to understand that person bit by bit. Argue with him/her(quite fun you know when you’re debating with the 1 u liked )

6)      Do something to pick his/her attention(don’t too obvious, don’t let the person know you have an interest on that person so that you guys will keep do the usual thing)..

7)      Have some special secrets between you(make sure you DO believe that person). I guess that’s fun..haha..cause nobody will understand what you guys talking when onto that particular topic..XD

I’m a guy who easy to fall in love but hard to fall out of love..Thats why who mess with me will got messed..LOL..Just kidding..I keep wondering…Who will walk into my life, AGAIN? T_T..Just like the song “I just haven’t met you yet – Michael buble”.. =>..which will make me more relieved..hahaha..i’m lame.

A little bit lifeless..^^

03/june/2010 12.44am..

Aloha guys~! Hehe, i'm back again..but nothing special la..just needed to express my feelings? LOL.. If you knew me then just read and forget them, not worth to remember it, even those who did not knew me. hehe..Well, last month night, on the great night(it's called IU night) near ending of the IU night, i broke up with my gf .... Aiyoyoyo~! So noob de lu. Lols.. ya lo..i could not lock her heart huh? XD .. Well i guess yeap...Hmm...On the night, as i viewed surrounding me, everyone is very happily shouting to the models(On that time is fashion show)...While as i'm opening the message and read, I'm stunned for a while, and when i wanted to reply, was halfway typing, a friend saw me keep on texting and he messaged me to ignore the 'texting' awhile and enjoy the show just for a moment..Then so be it..I was 'watching' the fashion show, with some 'cheerfully' face...shouting for no reason, maybe that time is very very noisy until i had the opportunity to shout as hard as i could..maybe to release my tension ? LoL! aiyo,in the msg she told me she think(not confirmed) she liked other guy, and might leave me soon..just might...Thats the time when i'm really stunned, don't know what to do... Man? Is this my own delusion? Is she just kidding me? Then i tried to look away( i observe the surrounding) and look back to my message again..Man! This ain't going away ! This has to be true! Omg!! sigh ~ The long awaited time...to be hurt again....My mood gone down tremendously while my physical body do the opposite... Well, then i reply her message to declare a break up..an end between us...Now you guys sure thought i'm a playboy...declare break-up like drinking a cup of water..lol..Sigh, I wanted to tell her this "I let you go because i love you, i don't want my beloved to be unhappy while being with me and i really wish you happiness with your new guy" (i hope he treats you better than me).. but i think that was unnecessary even though that's what i really meant it...lol...When i'm on my friend's car , journey to home, my eyes filled with tears...Not crying though, but full of tears...Then just in case my buddy beside me asking me why i'm crying, i'll just say i'm super sleepy ady lar...T_T...lol...luckily no one asked me, but i knew one guy knew what's i'm really doing..hehe..bt he's not asking anything, so i presume he did not know..haha..The time passed so fast.. already a month we broke-up..Hmm..Still got something i wanna say la..urmm..I've been with her for a month only...Don't you surprised? hehe..Now u guys sure blaming her that she's a kind of playboy..1 month only leh?? Very little ppl that will be together(couple) for such a short time! aiyoyoyo,, pity you la lawrence..being cheated in such a way..Lol..please don't think of that further more..That is because I'm unsuitable for her..i guess? Ask yourself, what you will do when ur GF suddenly said she attracted to a guy? Will you find that guy & beat the shit out of him? Will you keep competing to win her love? Or will you encourage her to pursue that guy? Which will you choose? (well there's definitely got a ton of answers)..What i chosen, i encourage her start to pursue that guy..There is no point to keep begging for a place when there's no space for you anymore..which means, i've been moved out from her heart...or starting moving...at that night..

I wonder when i'll find another girl i like? Which she will like me back and look no other guy except me. Hmm..keep wondering..computer games are for satisfaction not happiness(for me), sports game are just for fun, i want other than a family's love, friendship are to support each other, which also could not really give me the real happiness.. What i'm looking for? Where i should start at? Here? There?  aiya...nvm la..i should cherish the past experience and keep looking forward....That's what i'm always do..Well, to my GF...Thank you for teaching me so many things, in the mysterious world, you taught me basic things to keep me alive..Yet, Good luck with your new target!  And i would like to thank my friend who gave me advice, You helped me alot, even it's bitter experience, i will not be a choosy picker and will take whatever it comes!

Therefore, the bird whom just stayed on a tree's trunk for a moment accidentally dropped down when it saw a snake coming towards it. How unfortunate for it huh...And the flower i waters it everyday now seems it had wilted..Sorry for not able to identify what fertilizers i should put in..

1.24am..LOL,,so late...Bye bye~! May god bless everyone

Tiring day~

11.47 pm (sunday) 18th of april


Hehe, today just got back from genting highlands. Tried many new things such at most of the game at the outdoor. It was fun(cause it's new to me) and also a little bored out when the gang i go with all is coupled. =.=ll..So envy, they could bring them go. T_T..And with some complications occurs, i couldn't bring my own GF go there to have fun. Sorry eh.. ='(..well, at there just to eat is killing ur purse. lols..my last meal costed me about Rm 42.80(included tax) which is scary just for a food and a drink.. At saturday night(while the gang still hang out at indoor games) my mood suddenly changes..from good to bad(but when i face them, i might looks like in a good mood or if they found out, i just say i'm sleepy..lols)...dunno why, suddenly emo dy..-.-ll..sienz..on tat day i slept at around 2.00 a.m +..geng..and at 9 woke up to pack up things..lol..i wonder why nowadays i feel lifeless lo. sigh.. maybe emotional breakdown again, hormones imbalance again(as my friend said..xD =,=ll)..And tomorrow, need to get back on my daily normal life..go to school, tuition, back home & do homework. lol. Another day has passed. So quickly. T_T..I hope i could go to genting again with my GF next time. Hmmph! =P. After examinations, homework filling in. which is good but mostly we used to groan when teacher give homework..lols..hehehe..it's late ! Gonna school tomorrow ! XD Night night...

Quotes : Reap what you've sow. (my friend told me..^^)

Hohoho~

(07 / 4 / 10) 10.58p.m

Hehehe! Aloha! hmm..guess what? today i confessed to her already! hehehe...first time confession falls to her! hehe..and she accepted! Hurray! So happy! ngek ngek ngek..it's the time for me to experiences the real feel of being in a couple and being hurted(i hope not so but it'll might eventually come, just a matter of time. but i really hope it won't happen..in the bottom of my heart..really.) Hehe, we talked alot today! Until sit for hours also no feeling..xDD..yeng.. then the time is not early anymore, she need to get her things done by today cause tml needed to pass up le...hehe psps neh! need u use so much time with me..hehehe..

 Hohoho... on 17/4/10 i really hope i could go to genting highland with her ! ^^ hehehe...but hor, i told my dad...he did ask for details..then suddenly he ignores me and continues to do his work...in my thoughts.. oh man...i dun like this kind of feeling..i scared tat my dad will not let me go next week..T_T...but after he done his work, he give me some lectures..but didn't give me a clear answer that he agreed to let me go there have fun..this is bothering..dun knw wanna do what in this meantime, so i blogg! right after my sis finish using the computer..hehe..luckily my bro still not yet home , if not i sure can't blog again de..lols..he'll use the computer till he wanna sleep... -.-ll.. I really hope i could go there have fun lo..cause it's the first time i go out with my friends to stay over...kind of exciting..something like, independence.. your mum won't be there to wake u up, no more mum to prepare breakfast, lunch & dinner! hehe..i'm looking forward to this trip! Hopefully you & me can go together! tehee..xDD =P..dunno what to say le.. i'm gonna ask my dad tomorrow for an clear answer..^^..Good luck Lawrence! Best of luck! 

Quotes : If you want the rainbow, you must put up with the rain.